‘Safar’ A Journey to Self, Comes back with soft gentle steps making its way through a slow and steady uphill journey. My family, my friends, colleagues, acquaintances have been waiting eagerly for this day inquiring after every few days. What is happening with your book when will it release, when can they read it. listening to them with a smile on my face all I could tell them was, ‘I am waiting along with you’. It is He (DADASHREEJI) who has to decide the right time and place for it. Choose the right people who would be a part of this venture. All was His to decide for the book was His.
It seems the wait is getting shorter. At last, the journey started and the book went to the publisher, the editor for corrections, preparation, and printing. In this journey it became even clearer that it truly was my Divine’s Book, so who was I to rush the process. It will happen when it has to. Yet another lesson in patience and complete faith. The book should be out sometime in late July. Till then I thought of sharing with you all, my learnings and experiences, along with a few ‘excerpts from the book’, in this ongoing journey with my Divine Friend Dadashreeji. Please feel free to share anything that you want.
“kurbaan Jaaee us Vela Suhaavee Jit Tumre Duaare Aaya”….. Guru Granth Sahib Ji ! Meaning… Gratitude immense to that moment which brought me to your doorsteps.
I recently heard the devotional lyrics in Gurudwara Sahib and the truth sunk in even deeper. Words fall short on an expression of gratitude, yet I always will try, for there is so much to be thankful for. Gratitude that I have at last reached my lord, my Divine Friend Dadashreeji’s door.
I have been going to Gurudwaras for years now, doing seva, doing prayers, listening to the devotional songs but somehow I was yet to experience them as my personal truth, the way I have now. The words I heard before were momentary. Felt in the moment to be forgotten soon or hidden behind the chaotic life style. I am sure the fault was mine for I was not prepared. There was still time and maybe I had more learnings to go through. In all the years of seeking, from one divine place to another my hunger to experience the truth, what is happiness and peace, what is ‘True Divine Love’ has grown by leaps and bounds. The bone-deep hunger to taste what I had heard about, read about, listened to was increasing. “I soon understood it was not me who was seeking God, it was God who was seeking me”. He created the way with Grace for me to reach where I am today. Thank you Guru Nanak Dev Ji for you are the One who picked me up, and brought me to where I am today. You are the One who heard my heartfelt pukar (cry) and made the way for me to reach my Guru.
An excerpt from the book ‘Safar’.
God for me in my childhood years was like a feeling that overflows, as is the case with most childhood memories. Overloaded and consumed, taken into the system through the eyes of my Elders. Later on in the twenties, I viewed God as a watch-keeper, overtaxed with my demands and expectations. Devotion meant adhering to rigid beliefs and assumptions—if I pray to God, solutions will come my way, though my devotion lacked faith and belief that my prayers would be answered.
Fast-forward to today: Today, God is my Inner Divine, a constant with whom I live, breathe, eat, pray and sleep. Where earlier God was inaccessible, now, He is everywhere, both in my pain and pleasure. He is me and I am Him. My understanding of life, God and spirituality changed with the passing years. Today the Truth I live is, God is an expression of freedom, to love with joy and grace. Yet, the road that had been paved for me was a hard one. The understanding came, albeit much later, that God alone knew the pain and suffering I could take in my life. The path I was on was of self-destruction where I stopped seeing the person I was. I only saw the destruction of the ‘Self’, where I was fading away in the chaos of my life. Just before I was ready to break apart, He came in the form of a messenger to bind me back together. God gave me His hand and showed me the path of light, thus taking me away from darkness.
This book is the journey of my broken parts that were picked up and sewed together piece by painstaking piece, to be made whole by none other than the Maker Himself: my Dadashreeji. It is my story from the heart, an ongoing spiritual journey, evolving and growing every moment towards the path of Oneness. The destination is not my ultimate goal any longer for the journey in itself is beautiful. I no longer crave heaven for I have found heaven, my Eternal Home on earth. Now I live only for the present, loving and sharing the abundance and grace I have received in life. The purpose of my life—and this book—is to show the way for all to experience their Inner Divine under the guidance of a Spiritual Master. The “journey to self” is one such journey that will take you through various stages of life, giving clarity and guidance on how to avoid the misguided path in order to connect to the True One within yourself.
The depth of these words from Gurbani halt my footsteps now and make me bow down in heartfelt gratitude to the Formless Divine Energy that created the way for me to reach the Divine Form of my Divine Friend Dadashreeji, who helped me connect with ‘My Inner Divine Self’ ….. An ongoing journey till separation ceases to exist taking me beyond my limits to experiencing limitless in this lifetime itself.